Gay Essential Films To Watch, I Killed My Mother (J’ai Tu Ma Mere)

I Killed My Mother is a drama which examines the difficulties of the mother and son relationship.

Hubert (Xavier Dolan) is a 16 year old boy living with his divorced mother Chantale (Anne Dorval). Hubert is contemptuous of his mother. One of the reasons for the problems between them is the fact that Hubert rarely sees his father.

Following an argument with his mother, Hubert tells his teacher Ms Cloutier (Suzanne Clement) that his mother is dead. On discovering his lie, Ms Cloutier tells Hubert “You killed your mother”, prompting him to write an essay entitled “I killed my mother”.

Hubert’s mother finds out that Hubert’s friend Antonin (Francois Arnaud) is in fact his boyfriend and although comfortable with her son being gay, she is hurt that he did not confide in her. As their relationship goes further downhill, Hubert goes to live with Antonin.

After being invited to his father’s house, Hubert finds out that his parents intend sending him to a boarding school. Once there, Hubert embarks on an affair with Eric (Neils Schneider). Eventually, with Antonin’s help, Hubert runs away from the school and goes to the house he lived in as a child with both his parents. His mother finds him there and the film ends with a home movie of Hubert as a child, playing with his mother.

I Killed My Mother


“Xavier Dolan’s I Killed My Mother marks the emergence of an exciting new filmmaking talent. The Montreal actor, a mere 20 years old, displays a startlingly mature perspective on human behavior in his triple threat position as writer-director-star.”
   Eric Kohn, indieWIRE

“As a director, Mr. Dolan has a freewheeling style, and he’s self-dramatizing enough to want to call attention to it without being too much of a visual show-off.”
Rachel Saltz, The New York Times

“Love sometimes hurts, but love/hate is always pure anguish. That’s the two-stroke engine powering I Killed My Mother ( J’ai tué ma mère), a coming-of-age tale as ferociously raw as its teller – the very young Xavier Dolan.”
Rick Groen, The Globe and Mail Toronto

Did You Know?

I Killed My Mother, was the first film directed by Xavier Dolan, who plays Hubert. Written when he was 16 years old and in part autobiographical, the film got an eight minute standing ovation at the 2009 Cannes Film Festival. Review our Gay Themed Films Here

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